The things she knows

Mihra is learning a lot about how she works. She's learning about the panic, about the fear. She's talking to people, the people she lives with, and they are understanding she thinks. She would say she hopes, but she thinks is stronger and she needs to be stronger about these things. She needs to beat the freeze.

She knows that people arguing makes her fearful.
She knows that people telling her she's done wrong sends her into panic.
She knows that these should not be.
She will work on them.

She loves her friends.
She loves, and she knows what love is, in some ways.
But she is afraid of love too.
Afraid of the bad males.
Afraid of the Lexicon.
Yet she remembered, that time she pushed him off. Now she doesn't have any desire to keep her friends from hurting him for his sake, only for theirs. She knows what he is, at least for her and people like her. He is a predator, an abuser, a rapist.

She is learning herself.
She is not happy, but she is sometimes.
She can learn to be.
It is nice.